I'm just a little person

What is it about Charlie Kaufman, that throws you into the delight of complication?
What a feeling. I'll call this the Kaufman emotion - one that I feel after watching anything written by him, or as right now in the film Synechdoche, New York ---his first directorial venture.

Oh Charlie, you speak to my soul...in the same convoluted manner that we all speak to our own souls and those of others around us. Because this is your story....and also ours. Exactly how Cayden in Synechdoche says, "There are millions of people in the world. And none of those people are as an extra, they're all leads in their own stories."

In this film, he has so successfully given some words, characters and visuals to the ever difficult questions of life and death. Questions we ask ourselves at so many points of life. When the character of Cayden (fashioned after Kaufman himself?) is not sure of what he is trying to achieve through the concept of his next play, his actress (played by Michelle Williams) says, "It's good that you don't know...when you know that you don't know, it is the first step to knowing."

The beautifully and immaculately constructed screenplay, is nothing but the circle of life that gives birth to its real, fictional and on-stage characters, lives and dies like a being and a world unto its own.

"The end is written into the beginning".....a line uttered by Cayden's love-interest........says it all for me. For it is isn't it in any written, spoken story just like life? A story that goes on and on, and never sees an end till death. Yet, it still goes on.
And as always, Kaufman blows you away with that one long monologue from one of his characters:

"As the people who adore you stop adoring you; as they die; as they move on; as you shed them; as you shed your beauty; your youth; as the world forgets you; as you recognize your transience; as you begin to lose your characteristics one by one; as you learn there is no-one watching you, and there never was, you think only about driving - not coming from any place; not arriving any place. Just driving, counting off time."

Some of the songs have been written by Kaufman himself......and my favourite goes, "Somewhere maybe someday maybe somewhere far away............."

I cannot express myself anymore. Excuse me, as Cayden says, "It's Complicated."